The last 6 months or so have been pretty Weird!
There’s been a lot of just trying to hold on for the sake of holding on.
I moved to Philly in the fall & things ended up not really working out there, and I quit the bands & projects I was in, with the intent of putting music on the backburner for a bit while I got my life together.
"Quitting" music didn’t quite pan out either (You never know *where* life’s gonna take you) … I got back to New York & needed to make money & get by - started out with busking & got some freelance work - and hey, if someone’s gonna pay you to do something you’re good at - Work is Work
Then I fell into (read: applied & got competitively selected for) a Work Training Program in ITS Cabling (if you want to know what this is, google Infrastructure or Backbone Cabling). It was a 6 week, 175 hour course - 8:30-4:30 M-F with 3 hours of homework every night. Suddenly my only option for survival was Busking (and any other odd job I could find). Once upon a time, a dear Cellist friend told me “Busking is bullshit for reliability” … Gods, those words proved to be So True. Now there’s Job Placement & seeking, and ultimately this will allow me to support my creative desires instead of being crippled by them.
The last 6 months have been this weird place of burnout & financial desperation, and hope & perseverance, and wanting to create something musical & beautiful, but not really having any creative desires. I’ve also become increasingly conscious of wanting to do work at Good Quality - the recordings I’ve made in the past were all done lightning fast in 24 hours or less, and not really properly recorded/captured - not great quality. Additionally I’ve never pressed CDs, and I’m still waiting for Ghosts of Greyhame mastering to finish (it’s out of my hands). But anyway, the point is, I’m trying not to be the metaphorical Kid with Raggedy Torn Clothes on the block anymore - which has meant that I’ve had to put time, energy & money into other things, so that at the end of the day I *can* put out good quality Art and I can create something meaningful & something that I can be proud of.
In ways I’m proud of everything I’ve done so far, and in ways I’ve become less ambitious, and in ways I have more to go.
I do look forward to creating some more art & exploring the places that I meant to go when I first started out on this cello journey… I don’t know when exactly it will happen, but I know it will, and I look forward to that happening.
I’m really blessed that so many people have stuck around and cared, and as I’m embarking on this tour (as a Roadie, not as a Musician), I look forward to the future, and to knowing that at some point again, I’ll have some beauty to share with you all.
Thank You All
PS - I’ll be blogging about Tour over here: http://awakemyeyes.tumblr.com - so feel free to follow along - it should be an adventure!!
PPS - I was lucky enough to play Cello for a track on the new Frenchy & The Punk album - If you haven’t already heard them, go check it out!! The track is called “Mulina, Mulina”